Static in my Chest by Zack18Nolan - Zona

Static in my Chest by Zack18Nolan - Zona

Lyrics

Verse 1

I wake up in a room full of ghosts

Every wall knows my name

I talk to the ceiling like it’s listening

But it never answers the same

I drag my shadow through the morning

Like it’s chained to my feet

Everyone says it gets better

But better never comes for me

Pre-Chorus

I’m screaming in a language I don’t know

Bleeding out in silence, slow

They say I’m still breathing

But I don’t feel alive anymore

Chorus

I’m alone in a crowded place

Smiling just to keep the peace

If this is what it means to live

Then why does it hurt just to exist?

I’m numb, I’m cold, I’m barely here

Every year just disappears

If you hear me, don’t look away

I’m fading, but I’m still awake

Verse 2

I keep my head down, avoid the mirrors

They tell me things I can’t outrun

I wear my pain like armor plating

But it still cuts straight through my lungs

I’ve tried to drown it in distraction

Late nights, empty screens

But the quiet hits like a loaded gun

When it’s just me and me

Pre-Chorus

I’ve memorized the taste of shame

Learned how to smile through the pain

They ask me how I’m holding up

I lie like it’s second nature

Chorus

I’m alone in a crowded place

Smiling just to keep the peace

If this is what it means to live

Then why does it hurt just to exist?

I’m numb, I’m cold, I’m barely here

Every year just disappears

If you hear me, don’t look away

I’m fading, but I’m still awake

Bridge

I’m so fucking tired of pretending I’m okay

Of swallowing the words I never say

I don’t want to die

I just don’t want to feel this way

I stare at the floor like it might cave in

Wondering if anyone would notice

If I just stopped trying

If I just… let go

I hate myself for needing help

But I hate myself more for staying silent

Final Chorus

I’m alone in a crowded place

Screaming through a quiet face

If this is what it means to live

Then why does it feel like I’m being buried?

I’m still here, but I’m barely breathing

Still hoping, still bleeding

If you hear me, don’t look away

I’m breaking, but I’m still awake

Outro

Still awake…

Still alone…

Still hoping someone hears this song

And knows they’re not the only one