Verse 1
I learned how to flinch before I learned your name
Learned how to lie just to keep the peace
Every room still smells like fear
Every silence still cuts deep
I don’t sleep, I just drive
Chasing red lights through the night
If I stop, it all comes back
So I keep my foot down, don’t look back
Pre-Chorus
Love feels like a loaded gun
I don’t trust it, I don’t run
I’d rather crash than let it in
I’d rather bleed than feel again
Chorus
I’m fighting love like it’s trying to kill me
Fighting ghosts that still live in my head
I’m speeding just to feel something real
If I wreck, at least I won’t feel dead
I don’t brake, I don’t pray
I don’t need another reason to stay
I’m running from the hands that broke me
And the heart that keeps getting in the way
Verse 2
Every touch feels counterfeit
Every promise tastes like blood
You say “trust me,” I hear a threat
I’ve had enough of love
Dashboard glowing like a warning sign
Engine screaming what I can’t say
If love is slow and patient
Then it’s never felt my pain
Pre-Chorus
I don’t want your sympathy
I don’t want your arms on me
Every time I let someone close
I hear the crash before the road
Chorus
I’m fighting love like it’s trying to kill me
Fighting scars I can’t forget
I’m speeding just to outrun the feeling
That I’m still that broken kid
I don’t brake, I don’t heal
I don’t know how to feel what’s real
I’m running from the hands that broke me
And the heart that won’t let me be steel
Bridge
I don’t need saving
I need silence
I don’t need heaven
I need distance
Love left bruises I can’t explain
Said my name like it was shame
If this is love, then I refuse
I’ve survived worse things than you
Breakdown
Hands shaking
Mind racing
No destination
Just escaping
If I die young
Don’t call it reckless
Call it freedom
Call it breathless
Final Chorus
I’m fighting love like it’s my enemy
Like it’s the thing that ruins me
I’m speeding just to feel alive
If I crash, at least I tried
I don’t brake, I don’t slow
I don’t let my demons know
I’m running from the pain that raised me
And the love that I don’t want to own
Outro
Maybe someday I’ll let it in
Maybe someday I’ll slow my speed
But tonight the road understands
What love never did to me