[Verse 1]
Wake up heavy
Head like a loaded gun
Teeth marks on my tongue
From all the words I never said
Cold hands shaking
Laugh while my chest caves in
Say I'm "doing great"
You hear the joke
Not the aching
[Pre-Chorus]
I color it bright so you don't see
Every sharp edge cutting through me
You call it drama when I bleed
But it's the only way I breathe
[Chorus]
I'm split down the middle
Razor on a tightrope
Smiling on the outside
Drowning where the light won't go
You say "it's all in your head"
Yeah
That's the problem
I can't get out of it
I'm screaming for a little relief
And you just call it a phase again
[Verse 2]
High like lightning
Talking at a thousand beats
Plans for a brand‑new life
That burns out in a week
Then I'm buried
Face in a filthy sink
Three days in the same shirt
Convincing myself to blink
[Pre-Chorus]
I crash from the ceiling to the floor
You say I'm different than before
You want the version you adore
Not the one curled up at your door
[Chorus]
I'm split down the middle
Razor on a tightrope
Smiling on the outside
Drowning where the light won't go
You say "it's all in your head"
Yeah
That's the problem
I can't get out of it
I'm screaming for a little relief
And you just call it a phase again
[Bridge]
[Breakdown hits
Drums drop to half-time]
Pick a side
Am I sick or am I sin?
(Which one do you believe?)
Am I fighting for my life
Or just "acting up" again?
Every label that you give me
Feels like fingers on my throat
If you saw the waves inside me
You'd stop calling it a boat
[Chorus]
I'm split down the middle
Razor on a tightrope
Smiling on the outside
Drowning where the light won't go
You say "it's all in your head"
I know
I live there
It's a sinking ship
I'm begging for a moment of peace
Not your cure
Just a little relief
[Outro]
Just want to feel relief
(Just want to feel)
Just want to feel relief
Before I tear in two again