[Verse 1]
Kids in the kitchen
Cereal storms on the floor
Coffee gone cold in my hand
Phone buzzing at the door
Smile for the school run
Joke so they don’t see through
Inside I’m white-knuckle holding
Every color
Every mood
[Chorus]
I’m halfway between the highs
Halfway between the lows
Laughing at dinner
Then
Drowning alone
Trying to be their shelter
While I’m out in the rain
I’m holding on
Holding on
Till the weather in my head
Starts to change
[Verse 2]
Bills on the table
Therapy card in the drawer
“I’m fine
I’m fine
I’m just tired”
I’ve said that line before
My partner’s eyes ask questions
I hate the answers I hide
I’m here
But it feels like I’m watching
My life from the other side
[Chorus]
I’m halfway between the highs
Halfway between the lows
Building a pillow fort
Around a lightning storm
Trying to be their shelter
While I’m out in the rain
I’m holding on
Holding on
Till the weather in my head
Starts to change
[Bridge]
What if I’m still good
On the days I break
What if being “strong”
Means saying what I’m afraid to say
I need help tonight
I need you to stay
Just sit with the silence
Till it softens the weight (oh)
[Chorus]
I’m halfway between the highs
Halfway between the lows
But your hand in my hand
Is the only thing that holds
If I can be their shelter
I can lean when I shake
I’m holding on
Holding on
Through every rise and fade
Till the weather in my head
Starts to change
(Just stay)
Till the weather in my head
Starts to change