[Verse 1]
I told myself I wouldn’t look tonight
Wouldn’t let your name crawl back into my life
But there I was at 2AM again
Half drunk, blue light, holding onto ghosts with both hands
And it’s pathetic, yeah I know it is
The way one little notification hits
Like somehow after all this time apart
A tiny piece of you still reaches through the dark
You probably tapped right past it without thinking twice
Meanwhile I’m staring at my phone like it saved my fucking life
[Pre-Chorus]
God, what happened to me?
I used to be somebody
Now every small thing you do
Feels catastrophic
[Chorus]
You saw my story
And now I can’t sleep
'Cause for one second it felt like you were here with me
Like maybe you still stop when my name lights up your screen
And I hate that I still care this much
Hate that one view tears me open up
But your silence hurts less
When I know you still look for me
Fuck
You saw my story
[Verse 2]
I almost posted something just for you
Some sad song lyric only we’d read through
Something subtle enough to hide behind
But obvious enough to say “you’re still on my mind”
And all my friends say
“Man, just let her go”
Like hearts work simple because mouths say so
But they didn’t see the way you held my face
Like losing me would break you too someday
Now I replay every second of us back
Trying to find the exact moment we cracked
[Pre-Chorus]
And maybe you were just bored
Maybe it meant nothing at all
But you have no idea
How hard my chest hit the floor
[Chorus]
You saw my story
And now the whole night burns
One little sign from you and suddenly the wound returns
Like every mile between us disappeared for just a wordless second
And I know this sounds insane
But after all this time you still affect me the same
One view from you
And I’m right back inside the wreckage
Goddamn
You saw my story
[Bridge]
Do you still hover over photos of me too?
Do you still reread texts when the night cuts into you?
Do you still hear my voice in every city crowd?
Or am I just some old scar you don’t think about now?
Because I tried
I swear to God I tried
To become somebody you could leave behind
But every version of healing felt fake somehow
So I stayed bleeding where you left me
[Final Chorus]
You saw my story
And now I miss you worse
Because hope is such a cruel thing after someone hurts
You don’t realize how little it takes
To bring a dying heart back to life
Just one stupid view
One second of you
And suddenly I’m unraveling at 3AM
Like you never left
Like I still live inside your head
And maybe I always will
[Outro]
I almost messaged you tonight
Instead I watched your name sit there online
And honestly?
I think that hurt more.