Too Loud to Feel This Alone

Verse 1

Bass in my chest like a second heartbeat

Lights cut the room into people I don’t keep

I fix my smile in a bathroom line

Say “I’m good, I’m fine” like the tenth time tonight

Walk past faces I halfway know

“Hey! How’ve you been?” “Good!” “We should catch up though”

We never do, but we say it anyway

They drift back into someone else’s day

Pre-Chorus

I keep circling the same four walls

Like maybe I’ll land where I belong

Chorus

It’s too loud to feel this alone

In a room full of people I don’t know

They’re laughing like they’ve got somewhere to be

And I’m stuck in between

Every glance and every goodbye

Every “we should hang” that’s a lie

I came here to feel less on my own

But it’s too loud to feel this alone

Verse 2

Someone spills their drink on my sleeve

Says “Oh my God, I’m so sorry,” then leaves

Sticky floor, cheap perfume in the air

I laugh it off like I even care

Girls in the corner taking flash photos

Boys with their arms around girls they won’t know

Tomorrow morning, but tonight they fit

And I’m outside of all of it

Pre-Chorus

I try to dance like I’m in on the joke

But my body knows that I’m just a ghost

Chorus

It’s too loud to feel this alone

In a room full of people I don’t know

They’re stumbling drunk, they’re touching, they’re free

And none of it reaches me

Every “hey girl!” fading to air

Every small talk going nowhere

I came here to feel less on my own

But it’s too loud to feel this alone

Bridge

I’m not drunk enough to disappear

Not sober enough to be clear

I keep checking my phone like it might save me

Like someone somewhere might need me

What was the point of getting dressed up

Of showing up just to feel stuck?

I trace the exit with my eyes

Like maybe leaving’s the prize

Breakdown (soft)

Coat in my hand, one foot out the door

Heart doing less than it did before

City’s still buzzing but I’m done

Trying to be anyone

Final Chorus

It’s too loud to feel this alone

So I step outside and call it home

Let them have their neon nights

Their blurry laughs, their flashing lights

I gave it a shot, I showed my face

But I can’t fake my way through this place

I came here to feel less on my own

But I feel better going home

Outro

Streetlight quiet, finally breathe

Maybe the problem wasn’t me

Maybe some rooms just aren’t my own

Even when they’re full

I’m alone.