loud room, quiet girl

verse 1

i walked in like i practiced it

mirror smile, rehearsed a bit

neon lights, a thousand eyes

but none of them feel like mine

bass is shaking through my chest

someone yelling, overdressed

i say “hi” to a familiar face

we talk, then drift, then separate

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pre-chorus

i keep circling the same four walls

like if i move enough i won’t feel small

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chorus

it’s so loud but i’m alone

in a crowded room that isn’t home

everyone’s laughing like they belong

and i’m just learning how to hold it wrong

i came out to feel something new

but i’m stuck feeling invisible

twenty years and i still don’t know

how to be where i’m supposed to go

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verse 2

someone spills a drink on me

says “i’m sorry” carelessly

i laugh it off like it’s a joke

but i feel it soaking through my clothes

two girls dancing, hands in air

i pretend like i don’t stare

they look like how it’s meant to be

like movies sold it perfectly

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pre-chorus

i keep checking if i’ve changed at all

but i’m the same in every corner i stall

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chorus

it’s so loud but i’m alone

in a crowded room that isn’t home

everyone’s shouting every word

to songs i almost, almost heard

i came out to feel alive

but i’m just watching everyone else try

twenty years and i still don’t know

why i’m here or where to go

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bridge

my phone goes black, no battery

no one left to text “save me”

the music flips before the line

i almost knew, i almost find

someone stumbles into my side

laughs too hard, i step aside

i want to feel it like they do

but it won’t break through

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breakdown (soft, stripped)

is this what it’s supposed to be?

losing yourself in a memory

i’ll never even want to keep

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final chorus

it’s so loud but i’m alone

in a night i thought would feel like home

everyone’s glowing, passing by

and i’m just trying not to cry

i came out so i wouldn’t miss

whatever this feeling is

but standing here, i finally know

i’d rather just go home

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outro

cold air hits, the street is quiet

and for a second i don’t mind it

maybe i’m not missing out

maybe i just don’t fit the crowd

and maybe that’s okay somehow…