verse 1
i walked in like i practiced it
mirror smile, rehearsed a bit
neon lights, a thousand eyes
but none of them feel like mine
bass is shaking through my chest
someone yelling, overdressed
i say “hi” to a familiar face
we talk, then drift, then separate
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pre-chorus
i keep circling the same four walls
like if i move enough i won’t feel small
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chorus
it’s so loud but i’m alone
in a crowded room that isn’t home
everyone’s laughing like they belong
and i’m just learning how to hold it wrong
i came out to feel something new
but i’m stuck feeling invisible
twenty years and i still don’t know
how to be where i’m supposed to go
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verse 2
someone spills a drink on me
says “i’m sorry” carelessly
i laugh it off like it’s a joke
but i feel it soaking through my clothes
two girls dancing, hands in air
i pretend like i don’t stare
they look like how it’s meant to be
like movies sold it perfectly
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pre-chorus
i keep checking if i’ve changed at all
but i’m the same in every corner i stall
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chorus
it’s so loud but i’m alone
in a crowded room that isn’t home
everyone’s shouting every word
to songs i almost, almost heard
i came out to feel alive
but i’m just watching everyone else try
twenty years and i still don’t know
why i’m here or where to go
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bridge
my phone goes black, no battery
no one left to text “save me”
the music flips before the line
i almost knew, i almost find
someone stumbles into my side
laughs too hard, i step aside
i want to feel it like they do
but it won’t break through
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breakdown (soft, stripped)
is this what it’s supposed to be?
losing yourself in a memory
i’ll never even want to keep
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final chorus
it’s so loud but i’m alone
in a night i thought would feel like home
everyone’s glowing, passing by
and i’m just trying not to cry
i came out so i wouldn’t miss
whatever this feeling is
but standing here, i finally know
i’d rather just go home
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outro
cold air hits, the street is quiet
and for a second i don’t mind it
maybe i’m not missing out
maybe i just don’t fit the crowd
and maybe that’s okay somehow…
