The Heat

I feel the heat, bubbling inside of me.
The antsy jitters, rumbling trying to get free.
The racing thoughts circle like a loop, keeping me in a tight coop.
I then ponder: “It true? Is this what I see? Is this what I want to become of me?”

In the past, I used to be so scared. But I wonder why since I am so self-aware. 
I’ve tried to tell someone but I don’t want to overbear….but overtime,
I feel the pain grow inside….deep in my heart and soul….I don’t want it to wither and tear. 

Breathe, breathe, breathe. 
Breathe, breathe, breathe. 

In and out, in and out.
In and out, in and out. 

Release the stress, and remove that pout. 
I let go of the self-doubt, I feel it in my soul. 
For if I don’t let it out, trust me I will feel the toll. 
I have an epiphany….to initiate the journey, to self-discovery, wellness, removing all of the negative energy. 
The heat diminishes flame by flame, no longer am I in a spiral,
I am beating my own mind at its own game. 

I feel tame…no longer impacted by the flames. I hear my name, chanting in the back of my head: “Jahira” “You have finally won”. 
No longer a victim of the mental imprisonment that almost had me done. 
Let’s finally have fun!
No longer do I feel weighed down like a ton. 
It’s finally done. 
Let me go outside, and take in rays of sunshine.
No longer a pun….at the end of a punchline. 
In the end, please don’t worry, you will be just fine. 

Please remember too far in the past, makes you depressed….you will never be at rest. 
Too far in the future…makes you anxious….and you lose patience.
In the present….keeps you still. 
No longer will you be at your own mind’s will. 
The cup shall stay filled….not half empty, this is the mindset that will cause one to be set free. 
Once you understand this as a way to understand your identity…this will finally give you the key- to unlock your destiny.


Feel the heat!

Trapsoul, typebeat, hip hop, r&b, instrumental, black female soul singer