Loser (I Almost Believed You)”
[Verse 1]
You never said it loud, you didn’t have to
The way you looked past me said more than “I love you” ever could
I was the girl with the too-big dreams
You smiled like they were cute, like they didn’t mean anything
I kept rewriting myself to fit in your silence
Hoping one day you’d notice, hoping you’d try it
[Pre-Chorus]
I measured my worth in the texts you never sent
Every “maybe someday” was money I spent
[Chorus]
You called me a loser without using the word
Just a half-hearted shrug and a laugh that I heard
For years in my head like a broken record
I almost believed you, I almost surrendered
But look at me now, breathing out loud
Doing the things you said I’d never figure out
I’m not where you are, but I’m finally somewhere
And the funniest part is I still wish you cared
[Verse 2]
I see you sometimes in the grocery store lights
You’re with someone new and you’re doing alright
I smile too big, pretend I don’t feel the sting
You ask how I’ve been like it’s some casual thing
I say I’ve been good, I’ve been writing, been free
You nod like you knew I’d turn out to be me
[Pre-Chorus]
I still check my phone for a name that won’t show
Some habits die harder than people, I know
[Chorus]
You called me a loser in the spaces between
Every “you’re sweet, but” and “know what I mean?”
I wore that quiet no like a second skin
Turned it to armor and started again
Look at me now, still a little undone
But the girl you looked through is out there becoming someone
I’m proud of her scars, even the ones shaped like you
And the worst part is I’d still drop everything if you asked me to
[Bridge]
I don’t want you back, I just want to stop wondering
If you ever think of me, if you ever feel something
I’m healing in public, still bleeding in private
Loving myself is the hardest I’ve tried yet
[Final Chorus]
You called me a loser, I heard it so clear
In every almost and every “not this year”
I’m not all the way fixed, but I’m farther than yesterday
Learning my name doesn’t need you to say it
Look at me now, still scared, still trying
Still crying sometimes, but at least I’m not lying
I’m not your winner, I’m not your proof
I’m just a girl who finally learned her own truth
[Outro]
Loser…
I almost believed you.
Thank God I didn’t.
