I Know

I know these pills make me look like a fool.

I know if I continue ima die soon.

There’s some things I don’t know how to tell you.

If I don’t quit I know I’m gonna lose you.

Yeah I know the pain that I carry everyday and it drives you crazy.

Not feeling okay hurts you more than what you tell me.

Getting carried away in the drugs when I feel lonely.

Page after page as my lyrics fill out the blank sheets.

Gage after gage as the rounds hit between my heart beats.

Shells hitting rapidly right on the concrete.

Blood on my clothes cause from all the fucking noise bleeds.

A problematic background tells you that I have to change the way that I am.

I promise that’s the plan so it’s not much of a demand for you to stay with me and for me to be a better man.

The feeling of always being a burden makes me drown myself in fucking bourbon.

The poison coursing with my emotions makes my heart feel like it’s fucking exploding.

Every pill that I take makes you doubt and lose faith.

Every drink that I drank makes you walk the other way.

All the drugs that I ate tells me what you think of me.

Im a sad boy with too much negativity.

I’m a peace of shit it’s not that hard to believe.

The pills were the reason I kept falling asleep. The drugs are the reason I keep dying in my dreams.

I’m pouring my heart out just for you to see.

I know that if I die, ima die soon.

I know these pills make me look like a fool.

There’s just some things I don’t know how to tell you.

If I don’t quit I know I’m gonna lose you.

Fix myself, I have to.

Losing you, I don’t want to.

What I have to do is keep you.

The beauty of you is such an extraordinary view.

You’re gorgeous and it’s absolutely true.

You keep my heart completely in tune.

You keep the demons from barging in my room.

You can keep me from dying very fucking soon.

The reason I drink is because the way that I think.

The reason I pop is because I don’t know how to stop.

The terror of dread is just too much in my head.

The pain hurts more because you’ve never dealt with it before

I feel like ima collapse every fucking day.

I gotta quit the drugs in order for her to stay.

I blacked out once and left a big mistake on my Snapchat page and she almost left me.

I know that if I die, ima die real soon.

I know these pills make me look like a real fool.

There’s some things I just don’t know how to tell you.

If I don’t quit I know I’m definitely gonna lose you.

Don’t ever wanna imagine losing you.

The pain in my heart would be too much to get through.

Seeing your face is what I’ve grown accustomed to.

Without you I just don’t know what to do.

But just know this as I blow you a kiss.

I love you and I’ll do any kind of risk.

Stay with me and I promise, I’ll confess that the kids would see their mom and dad sleeping peacefully together in their bed.