Got a lot to give
With this heart I mean
But this Iife I live
Won't let me dream
Of a house that seems
to be filled with a wife and family
Ive been my own enemy
Mentally been getting worse
Won't be long before I volunteer to whip the hearse
My happiness built on lies
The truth was unveiled
Now I'm face to face with my true self
Who will prevail
Never was one to tell tales
But jealous of these ppl living fantasies
Quick to run from love been a tendency
Living with these demons
But these tenants see
A man they could use
And I let em cause whats the use?
I'm not blind to em since we reached a truce
I ain't tryna hang any longer so cut the noose
And Bury me with the love that you've rarely showed
Even in death I wanna collect the debt you owe
So
Not saying my mother and sisters plus the children
aren't enough to numb this feeling
But I guess greed is something men can't avoid so if lords willing
To keep me living I'd like to gamble with this hand I'm dealing
I've seen the best of days
Just to be taken by these thoughts
And the toll taken on this road ive paved
Got me feeling it was all for nought
Never spoke on whats been Illin me
Just wrote down what I felt would be healing me
Expressing what's been Killin me
Ain't exactly Been the remedy
And if it's a sign of my time
Then all I could ask for is a chance to seem my children shine
Never had a son or daughter
But the kids I've known is enough so why bother
Even so I'd wondered if Id be like my father