Porcelain Heart, Concrete Head

[Intro]
Yeah
Talk to myself ‘cause it’s safer (yeah)
I don’t trust your “forever”
I don’t trust my own flavor
[Verse 1]
I been ghostin’ my own phone
Airplane mode in my own home
Four walls like they broke bones
Every echo say “die alone” (uh)
Every text like a trip wire
Every “hey” feels like quick fire
You could heal or you could expire me
So I cut the call, I just retire, see
I hate this quiet, it’s violent, it’s loud
Room full of shadows, I’m lost in the crowd
I reach for a hand that is never around
Then push it away when it finally comes out (damn)
I been prayin’ for a body next to mine
Then I panic any time we intertwine
I’m the leash and the blade, both sides
I want love but I’d bleed you dry
[Chorus]
I don’t wanna be alone again
But I’m terrified of “more than friends”
Every time you get close, I bend
Break myself ‘fore the story begins (yeah)
I keep sayin’ that I want that trust
But I flinch every time we touch
Hate this heart, it’s a loaded gun
I’m scared of you
And I’m scared of the lack of someone
[Verse 2]
You say “open up,” that’s a coffin lid
Every secret that I got, that’s a hostage, kid
If I hand you the rope, will you drop that bridge
Or hang me from it when I slip? (talk)
Promise me what you can’t keep
I got memories that don’t sleep
Every “forever” turned war zone
Peace treaty signed in a short week
So I sleep with my back to the wall
Just in case that you plan to withdraw
If you stay, I’m waitin’ on the fall
If you leave, it’s my fault, my call (my fault)
My reflection don’t believe your vows
Every kiss got a countdown now
I been buildin’ me a fortress so proud
It’s a prison that I can’t climb out
[Chorus]
I don’t wanna be alone again
But I’m terrified of “more than friends”
Every time you get close, I bend
Break myself ‘fore the story begins (oh)
I keep sayin’ that I want that trust
But I flinch every time we touch
Hate this heart, it’s a loaded gun
I’m scared of you
And I’m scared of the lack of someone
[Bridge]
I push, I pull, I ghost, I plead
I starve for love then I never feed
I crave your arms, I choke, I freeze
You say “I’m here”
I say “just leave” (just leave)
[Chorus]
I don’t wanna be alone again
But I’m terrified of “more than friends”
Every time you get close, I bend
Break myself ‘fore the story begins
I keep sayin’ that I want that trust
But I flinch every time we touch
Hate this heart, it’s a loaded gun
I’m scared of you
And I’m scared of the lack of someone (yeah)
I’m scared of you
‘Cause I’m scared of the lack of someone

rap, Moody trap-leaning hip hop, fast tempo, heavy 808-style low end and sharp hats. Verses are dense, double-time syllables over a dark, minor-key piano loop and distant vocal chops. Hook opens wider with layered male vocals, subtle auto-tune, and a swelling synth pad to amplify the heartbreak. Ad-libs echo at the ends of lines, with occasional dropouts for a near-a cappella bar before the beat slams back in., raw, hip hop