[Verse 1]
I scroll past people I don't really know
Highlight reels on a tiny screen glow
Half of me jealous, half of me tired
Saving screenshots of a life I never tried
Talk big dreams in a group chat thread
Then I ghost plans just to stay in bed
Tell my friends I'm "busy" again
Really I'm hiding from the person I am
[Pre-Chorus]
Why do I care what they think of me
Chasing their praise like it's therapy
Every little like like a lottery
Still I feel broke in my body
[Chorus]
I'm so loud online, so quiet inside my head
All these filters on my face, still I feel unedited
Smiling in the photo, but the caption left unread
I keep lying to the world 'bout the truth inside my head
(inside my head, yeah)
The truth inside my head
[Verse 2]
Mama say, "Pray, it'll all make sense"
Therapist talk about boundaries and fence
But I still let every comment cut deep
Replay words when I can't fall asleep
I say "I'm fine" with a practiced laugh
Make new jokes out of broken past
If they saw the mess on my bedroom floor
Would they still love me like before
[Pre-Chorus]
Why do I care what they think of me
Posting my pain like it's comedy
Every little laugh like a remedy
Still I feel stuck in this energy
[Chorus]
I'm so loud online, so quiet inside my head
All these filters on my face, still I feel unedited
Smiling in the photo, but the caption left unread
I keep lying to the world 'bout the truth inside my head
(inside my head, woah)
The truth inside my head
[Bridge]
What if I say it straight
I'm scared I'll never change
I'm scared of getting better
'Cause better means I can't fake
What if I turn this page
Let the small steps count as brave
If I show up shaking
Will somebody stay
[Chorus]
I'm so loud online, so quiet inside my head
All these filters on my face, still I feel unedited
Trying to believe I'm more than what the numbers said
I might finally tell the world 'bout the truth inside my head
(inside my head, yeah)
The truth inside my head