Inside My Head

[Verse 1]
I scroll past people I don't really know
Highlight reels on a tiny screen glow
Half of me jealous, half of me tired
Saving screenshots of a life I never tried
Talk big dreams in a group chat thread
Then I ghost plans just to stay in bed
Tell my friends I'm "busy" again
Really I'm hiding from the person I am
[Pre-Chorus]
Why do I care what they think of me
Chasing their praise like it's therapy
Every little like like a lottery
Still I feel broke in my body
[Chorus]
I'm so loud online, so quiet inside my head
All these filters on my face, still I feel unedited
Smiling in the photo, but the caption left unread
I keep lying to the world 'bout the truth inside my head
(inside my head, yeah)
The truth inside my head
[Verse 2]
Mama say, "Pray, it'll all make sense"
Therapist talk about boundaries and fence
But I still let every comment cut deep
Replay words when I can't fall asleep
I say "I'm fine" with a practiced laugh
Make new jokes out of broken past
If they saw the mess on my bedroom floor
Would they still love me like before
[Pre-Chorus]
Why do I care what they think of me
Posting my pain like it's comedy
Every little laugh like a remedy
Still I feel stuck in this energy
[Chorus]
I'm so loud online, so quiet inside my head
All these filters on my face, still I feel unedited
Smiling in the photo, but the caption left unread
I keep lying to the world 'bout the truth inside my head
(inside my head, woah)
The truth inside my head
[Bridge]
What if I say it straight
I'm scared I'll never change
I'm scared of getting better
'Cause better means I can't fake
What if I turn this page
Let the small steps count as brave
If I show up shaking
Will somebody stay
[Chorus]
I'm so loud online, so quiet inside my head
All these filters on my face, still I feel unedited
Trying to believe I'm more than what the numbers said
I might finally tell the world 'bout the truth inside my head
(inside my head, yeah)
The truth inside my head

rap, Glossy crossover pop/rap with male vocals; airy ambient pads under conversational rap in the verses, tight clean drums and deep sub in the pre, huge side‑chained synth stack and octave vocal doubles on the hook. First drop feels wide and emotional, second adds ad‑libs and higher harmonies, leaving a spacious outro pad to breathe., emotional, pop, raw, clean, deep, ambient