Double vision
Shape-shift living
Everybody swears they know me
But they’re missing pieces
Identify me
Good luck trying
I’ve been ten different people
Since the day that I survived it
Somewhere between forgive them and fuck it
Still getting lost in the distance
Why’s the space between us growing
When I said I didn’t want it?
Say you love me
Make me question it
Say you want me
Then your actions never mention it
Give and take
Never equal
One gets sacrificed
One gets treated like they’re needed
Wanted posters won’t help find me
I won’t fit the description
Double vision, shape-shift living
Contradiction after contradiction
Wanna be loved the way I love
But I’d never trust it if I got it
Dead girl alive, still running from myself
Wanted posters won’t help find me
Feels like home in all the wrong ways
That’s the way I was raised
Neglected then praised
Down then up
Love with conditions attached
Every hug had a price
Every comfort had a catch
So I learned
Work for it
Earn it
Prove your worth
Cry alone
Hide the hurt
Nobody believes a child
So eventually
The child quits talking
Wanted posters won’t help find me
I won’t fit the description
Double vision, shape-shift living
Contradiction after contradiction
Wanna be loved the way I love
But I’d never trust it if I got it
Dead girl alive, still running from myself
Wanted posters won’t help find me
Truth is…
Maybe I leave before they do.
Maybe I move your feet
Then blame you for walking.
Maybe I know exactly
How to disappear.
Show up.
Pull away.
Come back.
Repeat.
Keep everybody guessing
So nobody gets close enough
To see me bleed.
Every time you switch up…
Every time you love me right…
Both are dangerous.
I always choose flight.
Wanted posters won’t help find me
By the time you read them I’ve already left
Started my next life
Another tattoo, another goodbye
Dead girl alive
Dead girl alive
Carrying ghosts beneath my skin
Every name I couldn’t keep
Wanted posters won’t help find me
Cause the girl you’re looking for
Was never me.
LyssDymension
