One second you’re comfortable
Next second running away
Lay in bed at night
Go over every single thing I did today
Did I reveal too much
Did I feel too much
Was I wrong to reach for your touch
They’re not worth your tears
Straighten your shoulders
Walk in like you own the place
Don’t let them see you frown
People actin like they’re above you
See those notches? Knock them down
Show them they can’t hurt you
Make sure nobody fucks with you
Emotion is weakness
Comfort is unattainable
Love is manipulation
I take care of you, better show you’re grateful
Show me you don’t care
Next lesson rage, get hateful
I have a thing for lists
Keeps my thoughts organized
The list of people I trust
You might be surprised
Got a few ride or dies
But my name didn’t make the cut
Cause see I want trust but I know I’ve told lies
They told me it was wrong to like girls and not guys
Once I get comfortable I feel compromised
If sky is the limit, I limit the skies
Give you endless chances you get so many tries
But me fuck up once and I’m out of your life
I do it to myself
Can’t even blame you
It’s in my DNA
Comfort ain’t something I do
Comfort means still I’m always searching for more
Once you find peace in me, that’s when my mind goes to war
Love isn’t comfortable
Why stop when there’s more
I could be better
Work harder
Show you I can be someone you adore
Get comfortable with my actions
I’m back to being invisible
I could do this by myself and not have to worry about what I did to you
See you might hurt me but it’s my actions that triggered you
I’ve always took the blame
Demons don’t stop til they finish you
Broken and empty with no love to give
How can I give something without knowing what it is
What happens if I give in
What if I added my name to the list
What if I trusted in myself and eventually in us
What if I gave you all of me and it still wasn’t enough
Then you’d prove my theory to be true
I guess I’ve got nothing to lose
But with nothing to lose there’s nothing to give
Winning me isn’t the prize
Learning to love yourself through my eyes
Once you realize there’s no limits, just skies
You won’t settle for the nothing that I had to give
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