[Intro - Moody / Breathless]
Why do I do this?
Why do I do this to myself?
[Verse 1 - Rap / Aggressive]
Ashtray full and my head’s on fire
Voices in my head screaming "liar"
Bleeding on the page just to stay sane
Writing all my sins in the pouring rain
Another fight with myself I won’t win
Another drink to drown my sins
Punched a hole in the wall last night
'Cause it’s easier than saying I ain’t alright
[Pre-Chorus - Melodic Rap / Sung]
I don't know why I keep falling
Hate the way that I'm stalling
Tell myself that I’m changing
But the pain keep calling
I just wanna feel something
Even if it hurts bad
Tell me why I’m like that
[Chorus - Melodic Rap / Sung]
Why do I do this to myself?
Break me down then beg for help
Say I'm fine but I’m not well
It’s like I'm under a spell
Why do I hurt me just to feel?
Pretend the pain is something real
Why can’t I just let me heal?
Why do I do this to myself?
[Verse 2 - Moody / Breathless]
Dim lights, quiet room, heavy breathing
Heart cracks slow, no healing
Memories like ghosts I’m feeding
Told you I'd change but I'm leaving
Sink in my thoughts like a cold ocean
Silence is loud, I drown in emotion
Love letters burned to ash
Watch my future fade to black
[Pre-Chorus - Melodic Rap / Sung]
I don't know why I keep falling
Hate the way that I'm stalling
Tell myself that I’m changing
But the pain keep calling
I just wanna feel something
Even if it hurts bad
Tell me why I’m like that
[Chorus - Melodic Rap / Sung]
Why do I do this to myself?
Break me down then beg for help
Say I'm fine but I’m not well
It’s like I'm under a spell
Why do I hurt me just to feel?
Pretend the pain is something real
Why can’t I just let me heal?
Why do I do this to myself?
[Bridge - Moody / Breathless]
Moonlight on the floor where I’m laying
Heartbeat slow like it’s praying
Words in my mouth but I’m not saying
Wanna quit but I keep on staying
Am I lost or just afraid?
Is this curse self-made?
Hold my breath and hope to fade
[Chorus - Melodic Rap / Sung]
Why do I do this to myself?
Break me down then beg for help
Say I'm fine but I’m not well
It’s like I'm under a spell
Why do I hurt me just to feel?
Pretend the pain is something real
Why can’t I just let me heal?
Why do I do this to myself?
[Outro - Moody / Breathless]
So tell me why
Tell me why
Whispered lies
Empty eyes
Tell me why I do this to myself
Tell me why I do this to myself
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