Over the top

I knew I should've left, nobody had spoke a word, but moods in the room, became dark clouds of gloom, the light bright fades fast, no Grey matter to be, just toss me back into my comfortable misery, I can't bare to lose control now, wish it was truly my world, but my anxiety rules all, can't believe the way it follows, eating up my sorrows, to spit them back at me tomorrow, my mind stuck on repeat, it's just so loud now, no way of drounding it out, it's meant to break the will, break the person, shatter into pieces, shread apart worth, anything goes long as it's working.