Why can't you wait for me, especially when we have so much going all the possibilities you threw to the ground that s*** it shows me that the way I was looking at you the tint has been a little Rosy or was the tint the color of whiskey, because my families demons run through me
Now I'm standing in the wreckage of what we could've been
Picking up the pieces while you're moving on again
Maybe I inherited more than just their eyes
These patterns keep repeating, wrapped in the same old lies
But I'm breaking every chain that held them down
Barely touch the bottle, won't let it turn me around
No dice rolling in my hands, no bets upon my soul
I'm rewriting this story, taking back control
See my father's ghosts, they whisper in my ear
"You'll end up just like us, drowning in your fear"
But I got a little boy who's counting on me
To be the man they never learned to be
I'm putting in the work, day after day
Therapy sessions, learning how to pray
Not to some distant god, but to the man I'm becoming
While the voices of the past keep on humming
One day someone's gonna see the fight I've fought
All the battles with myself that can't be bought
Someone who'll care about the scars I bear
Who'll understand the weight of what I carry there
Not just wanting me for what I can provide
But loving me for how I've changed inside
How I chose to heal instead of just survive
How I'm keeping my son's hope alive
'Cause the curse stops here, it ends with me
I'm the one who chose to finally be free
And when that someone comes who truly sees
They'll find a man who fought his family trees
Built himself a home where love can grow
Where whiskey bottles don't steal the show
Where children don't have to wonder if they're worth the stay
'Cause daddy chose to fight demons every single day
Yeah, the tint was whiskey-colored for too long
But I'm seeing clearly now, and I'm staying strong
For my son, for myself, for the love that's yet to come
The generational curse? Man, I'm the one who won.
WORLDPATTERNZ
