Alive

I’ve cried, I’ve died

Until I learned I was living inside

I’ve pleaded, I’ve wondered why

Until I learned it was easier to hide

Suppress the feeling, To stay alive

Chorus:

Because these

Questions thrive In

Silence, fester

Into a monster

I can’t hide this

Rife dysfunction

Fractures me

All I know is I’m alive

Verse 2:

I’m drowning, in all my lies

Choosing war for the sake of my pride

Don’t get near me, I’m losing my mind

I can feel it, it’s only a matter of time

Chorus:

Because these

Questions thrive In

Silence, fester

Into a monster

I can’t hide this

Rife dysfunction

Fractures me

All I know is I’m alive

I’m alive

Let me just close my eyes

I’ve lied,

(Until) I’ve drowned for sake of my pride

I’ve tried,

I’ve lost my mind

I’ve lied, I’ve

(I’m alive)

Survive

Meanings:

Breaking me into pieces that makes me unable to understand myself, express myself, know myself

Fracturing my memory beyond healing, distorting me

Fighting to break