Lead in My Lungs

Yeah

Heart heavy

Head loud

Threw my phone at the wall

Still I hear you in the pieces

All your texts in my head

Looping like they got diseases

Slept on benches in my brain

Where your name still carves the wood

Told my boys that I’m okay

Knowing damn well I’m not good

Staring holes into the fridge light

Didn’t eat, just felt the hum

Every shelf another memory

Every shelf another us

You moved on like changing outfits

I’m stuck bleeding through this one

You said “heal, it takes some time”

How much time till I feel numb?

I got rage in my veins, got rain in my eyes

Heavy like the world when you cut all the ties

I been screaming at the sky, but it don’t say none

All this pain in my chest feel like lead in my lungs

Like lead in my lungs (yeah)

Like lead in my lungs (uh)

I keep drowning in the dark that you came from

All this pain in my chest feel like lead in my lungs

Mom asking if I’m praying

I’ve been talking to the floor

Ashes in an empty bottle

Sleeping by the bedroom door

I’m a ghost in all our pictures

Cropping you out just to cope

But the outline of your shoulder

Still be strangling my hope

You be laughing in some new feed

I be laughing at my scars

Broken mirror in the bathroom

Shows me how divided hearts

Cut my hair, burned all your letters

Still your voice inside my skull

Telling me I’d never lose you

Guess you proved you’re capable

I got rage in my veins, got rain in my eyes

Heavy like the world when you cut all the ties

I been screaming at the sky, but it don’t say none

All this pain in my chest feel like lead in my lungs

Like lead in my lungs (hey)

Like lead in my lungs

I keep drowning in the dark that you came from

All this pain in my chest feel like lead in my lungs