Sensation

It’s a weird sensation,

Like I’m trapped in a dark situation.

And I have to get it out,

I have to explain it somehow.

I’m lying, back down on the floor,

Cold, hard, and ignored.

Like I’m alone and in this nightmare on my own and somehow,

My hands are full, and my mouth is like it’s being filled by this mound,

I’m nowhere to be found.

I can’t make a sound.

Everything and everyone is so far away,

Like I’m high up and I might just float away.

Then the whispers comes,

And I think maybe now is the time to run,

But I’m sucked into this nightmare somehow.

And in the back of my mind, I see you there.

And that’s the part that scares me most,

The part I don’t want to share.

It’s a frightful experience of,

A night full of hysteria,

Somehow I know this but I don’t remember how.

I know nothing of what happened,

But the memory is summoned by my laying down,

And closing my eyes, then it all comes rushing back in.

And it’s then that the feelings appear.

And I know danger is lurking near.

I’m lying, back down on the floor,

Cold, hard and ignored,

But somehow it’s the memory of you that I can’t ignore.

I don’t know how you made it here,

But I’m in your bed and dangers near.

And you are lurking close to me, lifting me from the ground.

My mouth is full and I wish I didn’t know how.

Please save me from this hell that I’m remembering now.