[Verse 1]
You call me up
"Come over, I can’t sleep"
We’re sharing fries
You’re spilling secrets in the backseat
Your head on my shoulder
Like it always is
You say, "I love her"
And I fake a grin
[Pre-Chorus]
If you only knew
What it costs me to say, "She’s lucky"
If you only heard
How my heartbeat trips when you touch me
[Chorus]
Two truths, one heart
I’m in love with you in the dark
But I gave my word to someone else
So I bite my tongue, I hold myself
You’re my favorite almost, almost
But I can’t let this thing unfold
So I live between the lines we drew
Lesbian in love with a boy like you
[Verse 2]
She waits at home
Text lighting up my screen
I send her hearts
While you’re tracing circles on my ripped jeans
You joke, "We’d be perfect
If you swung my way"
I laugh too loud
Just to hide my face
[Pre-Chorus]
If you only knew
How I practice telling you "I don’t"
If you only heard
All the names I call myself when I won’t
[Chorus]
[Bridge]
[low vocal register, half-spoken]
I spelled my truth
On late night notes I never send
Crossed it out
Started over, just as friends
I’m hers, I’m mine
But I’m still tangled up in you
Wrong time, wrong side
Both versions of me pulling through
[soft sung]
So I hold her hand
While I hold my breath
Every laugh with you
Feels like theft
From a future that we
Can’t ever step into
[Chorus]