House Full of Smoke

Ash on the counter

Plates in the sink

Voices like thunder

Glass on the brink

Mama on the phone talkin' circles

Dad in his chair goin' numb

I learned to tiptoe through the hallway

Heart beatin' louder than the drum

This a house full of smoke

Can't breathe when I’m home

Every room, every word

Cuts me down to the bone

I keep dreamin' of a door

Key I hide in my throat

But every time I try to leave

I'm chokin' in this house full of smoke

Photos on the wall all crooked

Smiles from a life I don't trust

They say “family first, we love you”

Then grind my face into the dust

I play pretend at the table

Fork in my hand like a guard

Laugh at the wrong time on purpose

So they don't see my heart fall apart

I been raisin’ myself in the bedroom

Talkin' to the moon like a friend

Swore I'd never be what they turned to

Swore the cycle’s gonna end

[low vocal register] I ain’t what you called me

I ain’t what you broke

[falsetto ad-lib] I’m more than your shadows, your shadows

I’m the one walkin' through the smoke