Holding Point

I learned how to breathe in quiet rooms

Where love meant staying, not being seen

I wore endurance like a second skin

Called it home, called it “being strong”

Now my body knows before my mouth

There’s a door I’ve already walked through

Still standing in the hallway though

With tomorrow pulling at my sleeve

I don’t need saving

I just need time

I don’t need promises

I need my life

I’m in a holding point, not turning back

Not running forward, just staying intact

Loving you softly where I stand

Without a future I can’t command

I’m learning grace day by day

Letting what’s real still find its place

You feel like air I didn’t know I missed

Like being seen without being claimed

But timing is a locked door right now

And love doesn’t always mean “stay”

I’ve been the woman who carried it all

Quietly counting the cost

I won’t trade my freedom for comfort again

Even when loneliness knocks

I understand the weight you’re under

I know how hard it is to leave

But I won’t disappear inside waiting

I’m choosing me

I’m in a holding point, heart awake

Learning which loves I can’t take

Relief and grief in the same breath

Hope with fear sitting in my chest

I’ll hold this truth, I won’t betray

The peace I found along the way

If love arrives before the ground is clear

It doesn’t mean it’s wrong

Sometimes it comes just to remind you

Who you were all along

I won’t bind my future to a moment

Or let my body decide my fate

I’m protecting the life I’m building

Even if I have to wait

[Final Chorus] (soft, resolved)

I’m in a holding point, still my own

Not alone, just growing slow

Giving myself the grace to be

A woman choosing clarity

If love returns when paths align

I’ll meet it whole, not left behind

For now I breathe

For now I stay

For now I choose myself

Each day