To All Of The Boys I've Loved Before

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it's been a long and dreary winter

and i'm pulling out splinters

in between my fingers

i think i've finally had enough to eat

i just want to go into the shower

and wash off years of soot

i don't want to play pretend anymore

cause i don't have much to lose

you were my last resort until you weren't

you just had to go and talk to someone else

well, when is enough finally enough?

cause i'm so close to giving up

to all of the boys i've loved before, this is my final act

thanks for stabbing me in the back

i just don't have anymore to give

and if i fucking did

i wouldn't waste it on any of you

and that's the truth

you know for every wilted petal on my doorstep

is me drawing my last breath

cause i had notebooks filled with each and every single one of your names

and still i was looked at as crazed

it's not my fault that i love so damn hard

maybe if any of you had a heart

you'd understand the predicament i've been in

sorry, but that's not a sin

and this last one i liked really hurt me the hardest

why dear God do i even get started?

cause i just know how it's going to end

me crying in my bed

you were my last resort until you weren't

you just had to go and talk to someone else

well, when is enough finally enough?

cause i'm so close to giving up

to all of the boys i've loved before, this is my final act

thanks for stabbing me in the back

i just don't have anymore to give

and if i fucking did

i wouldn't waste it on any of you

and that's the truth

and i pray you find yourself yearning for me

i pray all of you do

cause the last thing i want

is a picture of you

burning in the back of my mind

i’m gonna be alright

yes, i'm gonna be alright

you were my last resort until you weren't

you just had to go and talk to someone else

well, when is enough finally enough?

cause i'm so close to giving up

to all of the boys i've loved before, this is my final act

thanks for stabbing me in the back

i just don't have anymore to give

and if i fucking did

i wouldn't waste it on any of you

and that's the truth