[INTRO]
I’m still trying to feel real again
Trying to find the girl I was back then
[VERSE 1]
You came like a movie scene
Said all the words I wanted to believe
Kissing your lies, thought they were true
Thought this time, maybe you’d come through
I kept defending your empty acts
Twisting myself just to make you last
Wish I could hate you, but it’s in the past
[PRE-CHORUS]
It was all pretend
[CHORUS]
The man I loved never even existed
I held on tight to someone I invented
Fell for the mask, ignored all the damage
Thought I could fix you, but I couldn’t manage
Now I’m standing here trying to feel worth it
Picking up pieces you told me were worthless
And it hurts…
But the man I loved never even existed
[VERSE 2]
You changed the rules just to watch me fall
Made me the villain when you played it all
Called me dramatic when you crossed the line
Funny how you broke me, played with my mind
I lost myself just to keep you calm
Silenced my voice to avoid the harm
But I’m waking up, I see it clear
You never wanted love, you just wanted me near
[PRE-CHORUS 2]
It was all pretend
[CHORUS]
The man I loved never even existed
I held on tight to someone I invented
Fell for the mask, ignored all the damage
Thought I could save you, but I couldn’t manage
Now I’m standing here trying to feel worth it
Picking up pieces you called insignificant
And it’s tragic…
But the man I loved never even existed
[BRIDGE]
Don’t need closure, don’t need your apology
I don’t need answers, don’t need what you did to me
I just need silence, I need to breathe
Losing you was how I found me
[FINAL CHORUS]
The man I loved never even existed
And I’m done shrinking, I’ve resisted
You don’t get to write my ending like you lived it
I’m taking it back, I’m not persisted
Learning to choose myself with no permission
That broken woman is finally in remission
And it’s freeing…
To know you never existed
[OUTRO]
I’m finding myself again