[Verse 1]
Pinch my waist
Till my fingers turn red
Scroll through faces
All the ways I’m not them
Mama says
“You’d be pretty if you’d just…”
I laugh it off
But it’s carving in my chest
[Pre-Chorus]
Practice posing in the mirror
Angles
Filters
Perfect cheerleader
Tell me who I’m trying to impress
When I can’t even recognize my silhouette
[Chorus]
I’m a porcelain girl
Painted on a smile so they like me
Hold my breath
Pull it in tightly
Trying to be perfect for the world
I’m a porcelain girl
Cover every crack so they won’t see
But every time I change I lose me
I’m somebody else
Somebody else
[Verse 2]
Jeans too tight
But I say they fit fine
Skip two meals
Call it “just not my time”
Friends clap loud
When I shrink another size
“Girl
You’re goals”
But they don’t see my tired eyes
[Pre-Chorus]
All their praise feels like pressure
Pretty cage dressed up as treasure
Tell me who I’m trying to protect
When my own reflection feels like a guest
[Chorus]
[Bridge]
Who was that kid in the birthday dress
Frosting on her face
Didn’t care who guessed
Didn’t suck it in
Didn’t hide her laugh
Didn’t ask “am I enough?” after every snap
[low vocal register] I miss her
I miss her
[soaring vocal] I miss her
I miss her
[Hook]
I don’t wanna be your perfect picture
I just wanna feel at home in my skin (oh-oh)
Can I be the girl in all my glitches
Not a polished version you can spin
Let me be the one that’s never scripted
Messy
Real
And loud from within
I don’t wanna be your perfect picture
I just wanna be
Wanna be me again