[Intro – Lily | fragile whisper]
I told myself I’d never call
(never call…)
But your name’s already on my tongue
(mmm…)
[Verse 1 – Lily | exposed]
You say you’re broken, say you’re trying
(you always do)
Say the rumors all are lying
I’ve heard this script before
(still I wait…)
Still I’m waiting at your door
You touch my face like I’m a secret
(keep me quiet)
Like I’m something you can keep hid
In the daylight you look away
(look away…)
At night you beg me to stay
(stay…)
[Pre-Chorus – May | tension building]
You say I’m different, not like them
(“you’re different”)
That I’m the only one who understands
But somehow I’m the one who cries
(why me?)
While you sleep just fine at night
[Chorus – All | rhythmic, intense]
Black mascara down my skin
(running, running)
I swore this time I wouldn’t give in
(not again…)
But here I am in your bed again
(again…)
Calling chaos “just a friend”
Black mascara, mirror shame
(can’t look away)
I know the pattern, know the game
You say my name like it’s a cure
(say it soft…)
But I’m not even sure anymore
(anymore…)
[Verse 2 – May | conflicted]
You disappear for weeks at a time
(every time…)
Then come back saying you’re losing your mind
I let you in like I’m addicted
(addicted…)
Like heartbreak feels familiar, scripted
You never promise, never stay
(no, you don’t)
But you always know just what to say
Enough to keep me on the line
(on the line…)
Enough to make me think you’re mine
[Rap – Hana | low, controlled, subtle echo ad-libs]
I analyze every word you say
(break it down)
Like there’s a truth between the grey
You don’t commit, you just return
(return…)
You like to watch me twist and burn
You don’t choose me — you choose need
(you choose need)
You choose whoever lets you bleed
And I let you, that’s the crime
(that’s the crime…)
I mistake attention for a sign
[Pre-Chorus – Lily + May | anxious layering]
I tell my friends I’m finally done
(done…)
Then answer when you call at one
(1 a.m.)
I hate the way you make me feel
(why?)
But silence hurts me worse than real
[Chorus – All | heavier drums]
Black mascara down my skin
(running…)
I swore this time I wouldn’t give in
(not again…)
But here I am in your bed again
(again…)
Calling chaos “just a friend”
Black mascara, blurred control
(out of control…)
You say you love me, but you don’t
(no, you don’t…)
And I know that — that’s the worst
(it hurts…)
Still I’m the one who runs back first
[Bridge – Lily | almost a cappella, breath audible]
Why do I miss you when you’re cruel?
(why…)
Why do I make myself the fool?
If I can see it, why can’t I leave?
(why can’t I?)
Why does the lie feel like relief?
(relief…)
[Final Chorus – All | biggest dynamic]
Black mascara, watch it fall
(fall…)
I know you’re wrong, I know it all
But knowing doesn’t make me strong
(not strong…)
When wanting you still feels this wrong
Black mascara, stained and thin
(stained…)
Maybe I love the mess I’m in
Or maybe I just hate being alone
(so alone…)
More than I hate what you’ve done
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