Before It Begins

How do you miss someone you’ve never touched

Never stood close enough to feel their breath

I don’t know your habits, don’t know your arms

But somehow you’re already in my head

I lived my life so untouched by this

No face, no voice that felt like truth

Then suddenly every thought I have

Is quietly leading me to you

It’s strange how fast

Something unreal

Can feel this real

I can’t believe I went my whole life

Without your name on my lips

Without my heart on the line like this

I think it’s the first time I know what I need

And I want you so bad it scares me

’Cause now I’ll know how good it is

If you ever leave

I don’t even know the sound of your laugh

But I hear it when I close my eyes

I don’t know the shape of your hands

But I swear they’re already holding mine

I’ve been careful, I’ve been fine alone

I never needed someone to feel okay

But something about you feels like

A truth I didn’t have to chase

It’s not a dream

It’s not pretend

It’s something starting before it begins

I can’t believe I went my whole life

Without your name on my lips

Without my heart learning risk like this

I think it’s the first time I know what I need

And I want you so bad it scares me

’Cause now I’ll know how good it is

If you ever leave

Maybe it’s timing

Maybe it’s fate

Maybe it’s just my heart recognizing yours too late

Or too soon

But either way

I feel you coming closer every day

I don’t even know you

But I feel you

Like something I’ve always known

If this is love before touch, before proof

Then I’m already gone

I think it’s the first time I know what I need

And I want you so bad it scares me

’Cause now I’ll know how good it is

If you ever leave