Cost of my Soul

[Intro]
In the shadows of my past, I stand and face the dawn
A gunslinger with a story, I can't erase what's gone
How low my soul must be worth now
Too often, I feel like giving up, like going back
It’d be too easy
To scorn my blackened soul over and over
but I wanna be better than me

[Verse 1]
Once I was an outlaw, wild, untamed, and free
Now I walk a thin line, trying to find the key
Revolver in my hand, Gunsmoke fills the air
Seeking redemption’s light, trying to leave the dark behind

[Pre-Chorus]
Every step I take, I hope I’m worth saving
Facing all my demons, the past I keep craving
Is there a place for me in the peace I seek?
Or am I just broken beyond what I can speak?

[Chorus]
Oh, I’m trying to make it right
With this revolver and my fight
Hoping at the end of the night
That I’ll be worth saving

[Verse 2]
Hoping my good intentions will make up for this soul of coal
Walking through the shadows, trying to regain control
Worn boots and a black hat, scars I hide deep
But I’m chasing a tomorrow where I won’t weep

[Pre-Chorus]
Every mile I cover, I'm hoping I find
A piece of peace to calm my troubled mind
Can I heal from what I’ve done?
Or am I lost, forever on the run?

[Chorus]
Oh, I’m trying to make it right
With this revolver and my fight
Hoping at the end of the night
That I’ll be worth saving

[Verse 3]
What’s the cost of my soul now?
My reflection is still cracked in the mirror
It’s difficult, to take another step, my footprints leaving ash and soot
Oh god, please save me

[Pre-Chorus]
The roads are long, and the nights are cold
But I hold hope like it’s pure gold
Through the fire, through the rain
I’m searching for my name

[Chorus]
Oh, I’m trying to make it right
With this revolver and my fight
Hoping at the end of the night
That I’ll be worth saving
That I’ll be worth saving 

Oh, I’m trying to make it right
With this revolver and my fight
Hoping at the end of the night
That I’ll be worth saving
That I’ll be worth saving

Oh, I’m trying to make it right
With this revolver and my fight
Hoping at the end of the night
That I’ll be worth saving
That I’ll be worth saving
That I’ll be worth saving 
Oh that I’ll be worth saving
Someday

[Bridge]
What more can I do, I know it’s selfish
I know it’s petty, but I cant live my life like this anymore
Damned, strained, strangled, choking on gunsmoke, 
Please don’t turn your back on me
The ashes left in the wake of my sins blot the sky, pale, grey, and dark
I’m scared of the darkness I’ve created

[Outro]
Maybe I’m not perfect, maybe I’m broken
But I keep fighting, with every word spoken
Righting wrongs, I’m trying to find my way
Hoping that I’ll be worth saving someday.

outlaw ballad with a gritty, emotional, electric guitar, harmonica, and soulful vocals, female, blues, rock, hard rock