[Intro]
Yeah
I remember
Plans I had for us
All in my head, still
[Verse 1]
I was picking out names in my notes app
Scrolling baby clothes, you were on my lap
You were laughing, said I'm way too fast
Said, "Relax, we got time," I thought we'd always have
Arguing over colors for the nursery
You said yellow, I said blue, you just smirked at me
You said, "If it's a girl, she gon' run this world"
"If it's a boy, that's your twin, that's your little world"
You were screenshotting cribs, I was checking cradles
Talking 'bout fairytales, we were building fables
In the back of the Uber, you were on my shoulder
Whispered, "Promise you'll be here when we're older?"
[Pre-Chorus]
I said, "Always," didn't blink when I said it
Drew a future on your skin, yeah, we meant it
Every street that we walked, I could see it
Tiny shoes by the door, I could feel it
[Chorus]
Plans that I had in the future
Got me haunted, I can't mute ya
I remember I was thinking 'bout babies
Boy or girl, what we'd name it, it breaks me
It hurts we never made it
Whole life that we created, now it's vacant
Staring at the ceiling going crazy
Boy or girl, what we'd name it still chase me
[Verse 2]
You liked "Aaliyah," I was stuck on "Skye"
You said "Josiah" if we had a little guy
We were Googling meanings, laughing at the weird ones
"Not that one, that's a villain from a sitcom"
You'd send me TikToks of a family of four
Caption like, "Us in three years or more"
I'd save every clip like a vision board
Thought the universe heard us, thought it kept score
We were broke but we promised we'd make room
Said we'd argue 'bout cartoons in the living room
You'd say, "Nah, no sugar before they're three"
I said, "I'll sneak 'em candy, blame it all on me"
Then the fights got long and the nights got colder
Texts got short, your replies got older
All that talk 'bout forever turned into "maybe"
Now I'm here with these names and nobody's baby
[Pre-Chorus]
I said, "Always," now I'm choking when I say it
Scroll our messages and feel my chest cave in
Every street that we walked feels like a graveyard
Little ghosts of the plans that we made, yeah
[Chorus]
Plans that I had in the future
Got me haunted, I can't mute ya
I remember I was thinking 'bout babies
Boy or girl, what we'd name it, it breaks me
It hurts we never made it
Whole life that we created, now it's vacant
Staring at the ceiling going crazy
Boy or girl, what we'd name it still chase me
[Verse 3]
Your mom still asks if I'm doing alright
She don't know I'm still stuck in that night
When you cried on the couch, said, "I can't do this"
Said, "I lost myself in all that we promised"
You said, "What if I'm not meant to be a mom?"
I said, "You'd be perfect," you just stayed calm
You stared at the floor, wouldn't meet my eyes
Said, "I'm scared of the way that you fantasize"
You were terrified I loved the dream more than you
That I loved the picture, not the person I knew
I was busy building castles in the clouds
Didn't see your heart slipping through the crowd
Now I'm walking past playgrounds with my hood up
Every laugh from a kid makes me look up
Half-expecting to see you on the swing set
Hair up, tired eyes, but no regrets
[Chorus]
Plans that I had in the future
Got me haunted, I can't mute ya
I remember I was thinking 'bout babies
Boy or girl, what we'd name it, it breaks me
It hurts we never made it
Whole life that we created, now it's vacant