[Intro]
Ash on my jeans
Burn in my lungs
Same old scene
Same old run
[Verse 1]
Wake up, headache, ash in the tray
Did it last night, do it today
Ghost in the mirror, eyes all grey
Tell myself "stop", still press play
Phone on silent, duckin’ my friends
I say I’m busy, it’s all pretend
Fill up the paper, fold up the end
Same little ritual, loop again
Mama keep callin’, I let it ring
"Son, you okay?" I say "I’m king"
Hang up quick, that guilt, it sting
So I spark up, try to mute that thing (yeah)
[Chorus]
I smoke my problems away
I do it every single day (every day)
Clouds in my chest when I pray
But they don’t ever float away
I smoke my problems away
I do it every single day (every day)
Promise myself I’ll be okay
Then I just fade, I just fade
[Verse 2]
Couch with the blinds closed, noon lookin’ late
Crumbs on the table, heart full of weight
Say it’s "just stress", "just need a break"
Know it’s much more than a tiny escape
Deep voice laughin’ in a room full of smoke
Mask on thick, all the tears in the joke
She said she love me, I just choke
"Love who? This mess? This walking cloud of dope?"
Bank app red but my eyes stay redder
Every pull promise that I’ll do better
Write that text, then delete the letter
"[I’m fine, I swear]" send the shorter version instead of the real one
[Chorus]
[Chorus]
[Bridge]
[low vocal register]
Every time I’m tryna feel less
I end up feelin’ more pressed
Weight on my ribs, that tightness in my chest
Say, "After this one, I’ma rest"
[female vocals, soft]
But you light it again
You’re losin’ yourself, call it a friend
You’re fallin’ and fallin’ with nothin’ to catch
Breathin’ in hurt with every match
[Chorus]