Every crack
You slip through
You walk away
From all the damage
You know exactly
How to work it
How to smile
And play the game
You shake the room
With one small comment
Then sit back
Like it’s all a joke
You get away
You always get away
While I stand here
Holding all the pain
You act like
You never touched the fire
Like your hands
Have always been clean
You forget
What you did to me
And somehow
You keep doing it
Don’t you?
You walk in smiling
Like a polished stone
Like nobody remembers
What happened at home
You get away
You always get away
While I stand here
Holding all the pain
You know how to charm them
Know what to say
Know how to twist it
And walk away
And I stand there
Holding all the wreckage
Trying not to bleed
In front of my babies
Because you always know
Exactly where to cut
Never enough to kill me
Just enough to watch me hurt
You get away
You always get away
While I stand here
Holding all the pain
You call me crazy
You call me hard
You rewrite history
Like some kind of art
And they look at you
Like you’re harmless
Like they never saw
What I survived
You get away
With every little dagger
Every sideways laugh
Every public strike
You get away
You always get away
While I stand here
Holding all the pain
And I get left
Holding my breath
Trying to stay graceful
Trying not to break
Not who I am
Not what I gave
Not how I carried
This family on my back
Not the nights
I held everything together
While you burned through
Everyone around you
You get away
You always get away
While I stand here
Holding all the pain
None of it matters
Not to you
You just keep walking
Like clean hands
Like good lies
Like nothing ever happened
But I remember
I remember the fear
I remember shrinking
I remember apologizing
For things you did
I remember becoming smaller
So you could feel bigger
You get away
You always get away
While I stand here
Holding all the pain
And maybe that’s
What hurts the most
You still reach for me
The same exact way
Like after all this time
You still need me beneath you
To feel tall
Raven_Brooks
