Weight on my shoulders

Everybody got a vision of who I am supposed to be stacking all their dreams up Putin, all that weight on me smiles on my face, but my chest feels tight, trying to stay strong when I’m losing every fight. I hear voices in the back of my head saying don’t mess up. Don’t trip don’t fall instead I wanna make him proud I don’t wanna feel but the pressure feels heavy like a broken scale. Every step I take feel like thin ice cracking every long move. Got my whole world shaken I’m holding my breath just trying to copy action like I’m fine, but I’m barely holding. Hope I hate letting people down. Yeah it cuts so deep trying to carry the world, but it’s crushing me so much pressure. Yeah it’s pulling me under heart. Be loud like distance thunder I wanna rise, but I’m stuck in the sound of all that fear when I let people down late night, staring at the ceiling fan replay every word every slip of the plan I can compare my steps to everybody else trying to be perfect, but I’m losing myself they don’t see the tears when the lights go dim they don’t feel the war that’s inside my skin. I’m still fighting yeah I’m still here even when my courage hides behind my fear. Maybe I don’t out of everything they need. Maybe it’s OK just to breathe and believe I’m learning that fallen. Don’t make me weak. It just means I’m human. Still chasing my dreams I hate letting people down. Yeah it cuts me so deep carry the world, but it’s crushing me so much pressure yet. It’s pulling me under, but I’m standing tall in the middle of the thunder. I might bend but I won’t back down. I’m more than the fear letting people down.