Weight I carry

They got dreams for me feel it on my back every time I breathe feel like pressure attached. I don’t wanna feel I don’t wanna crack on my face, but my mind track off believe in me. That’s what scares me the most. What if I fall short what if I choke I’m holding it together, trying to not break with the weight that I didn’t create Late night thoughts get loud everyone watching. I stand out in the crowd. They say I’m special say i’m designed for more, but they don’t feel the stress when I pacing the floor. I can pay off myself to who they want me to be trying to lift up a picture of they I got hurt full of Hope and fear mixed in trying to run, but scared I won’t run again for me, but I feel on my back every time I pressure attack. I don’t wanna fail. I don’t wanna crack smile on my face, but my mind off track they believe in me that’s what scares me the most if I fall short what if I choke I’m holding it together, trying to not break living with the way that I didn’t create. I’m not I’m just human inside trying to stay strong swallow my pride I don’t wanna disappoint the ones who care so I hear it all like it’s mine to be. I talk to myself like you’ll be OK even when dad tries to get in my way if I make do this, I finally see I was enough even under the way on me.