Forsaking the past to love me

In life you must choose

To be loved or be used

It’s never that hard to tell

Even when I lie to myself

Just why I allow you in

The same type of person

Again and again

That I let through

With the same old sin

But it’s gotten old now

No longer the one I have been

Always changing

Finally rearranging

And with it I am craving

A love that won’t forsake me

Tell me am I worthy

To desire who also wants me too?

Or is my desire to live in rose colored glasses

That’s the only fate that now just passes

Maybe then I’ll never know

What fate can barely show

I never want “what’s best”

Cause it’s all just like the rest

It lacks soul and deep devotion

A love I once would dream in

But now it’s just a void

With nothing left inside

Luring me with Twinflame love

Was the regret I should have shoved

Further away from my soul

Cause sleeping with me

Was your only goal

For me there’s no “past life” love

It was nothing it’s all made up

Yeah I know I should of known better

But I wanted to believe you were out there

Now I know…it’s just only me

And yes it gets lonely but…

It’s a truth I needed to finally see.

Se la vie