Praise kink?
Man- I’m so sick of myself
That shit is literally extinct
It doesn’t cross my mind
All it does is waste my time
Believing in false notions
Just to use what’s left inside
I’m barely even a person
Felt this way before
But now I’m certain
Love is really bullshit
I feel like closing that final curtain
So much wasted time
I’m empty on rewind…
Wondering what’s left
While thinking it’s nothing in my mind
I’m just tired of it all
Knowing now it’s not worth the fall
Loving someone who wastes your time
Just for them to manipulate your mind
Seeing that now I just want to disappear
I realize now there’s nothing left of me here
Everything is nothing
And nothing feels so empty
So please don’t try and tell me
That any of this is really for me.
I just want to be at peace
From old connections I want to release
From people that abused my heart
And that only lied to me from the start…
Family, friends and strangers
Making love just feel like danger
Literally I’m tired of all their bullshit
It’s not worth trying to play a “savior”
I’m trying to keep making money but
It’s hard to see the reason
When life no longer holds beauty
And there’s nothing worth it in a season
It is what it is
I’ll let this play out
Regardless of the stress
And when I have my doubts
If I’m being honest
All I want is rest
Something sleep can’t fix
Knowing I’m doing my best
Regardless it’s ok
I know in time I’ll find a way
Even when love feels wrong
It was gone all along
But on the bright side
I can’t trip over what I never had
Regardless of what I thought was right
Or how these things make me feel bad
It’s crazy for me to think
And how I use to dream
Of Heaven being better
Then the life in front of me
Being dead just feels safer
Then having a love that isn’t real
When the closest thing you knew was a stranger
And knowing it’s the only thing you’ll ever feel.
Maybe I’ll stay broken
Or maybe I’ll heal
Either way I’m growing
And learning how to deal.
Regardless of whatever at least I knew I kept it real.
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