Furcas to Zaidkel : Lessons beyond the veil

I’m obsessed with the notion

Of a deep rooted devotion

A love that holds no bounds

And yet- the lack there of goes round and round

Internally I hold no sound

But you, my love. I see it true

Your demons captivate my angels anew

It’s pathetic to fall for an illusion such as you

Cause with it love was never real

Just a sedative to deceive me from the truth

The truth that the idea of love was better than love itself

So I could convince myself you were better for my health

Of a ether so vast in the cosmic sky

I obsessed for a love that nearly killed myself

Unrequited is what was left

Cause to love another

I must first love all that I dread

And love is the most vulnerable act for us to have

Cause it holds no envy, hatred or underlined animosity

And now that I look back

It’s the very thing that held me entirely

Between those that lied to themselves

Where love was without

Cause only true lovers can love a Villain

And hold their pain like a eternal cloud

A cloud that surrenders and carries no name

To past horrors and torture that carry no name

With this I failed and in you I faltered

But I’m grateful for your lessons

The ones that made me stronger

With it held blessings

Within your very name

Something I’m proud of

No longer needing to tame

It’s clear I’m meant for fire

Just to come back again

A flame that holds me higher

That’ll always carry your name

And with it I will no longer be ashamed.

Cause no matter what I’ll always be reborn again.