“Me, Myself & I (Seventeen Shadows)”

They see a mask, I see a wall

Behind these eyes, I’ve seen it all

I laugh but hide the silent cries

Built from bruises and goodbye

I walk alone, I hold my breath

Keep them out, protect what’s left

Don’t get too close, don’t ask me why

My silence screams, I won’t deny

In the corner where I hide, I feel safe but dead inside

Distance is my armor, but it’s also my divide

They call me cold, they think I’m mean

But it’s just wounds that no one’s seen

I’m A and B, a paradox inside

Paranoid heart with a love that hides

I push away, then crave the light

Me, myself & I in the war I fight

Seventeen shadows in my mind

I’m not broken, just redesigned

And I will find who I’m meant to be

But for now, I’m learning how to be me

Don’t trust the touch, don’t trust the smile

Some betray with every mile

Every “hi” could mean a lie

So I escape, don’t even try

Self-sufficient, self-contained

No one sees my hidden pain

They follow close, I pull away

Afraid their ghosts will want to stay

I’m expressive, but only when

You break my walls again and again

But even then, I fear the fall

So I’d rather never feel at all

I’m A and B, a storm inside

Loving loud, but choosing pride

I play the role, I cry in dreams

I fake control with silent screams

Seventeen shadows in my mind

Built by hurt, and love declined

But I still hope someone might see

The version I hide deep in me

The Shack taught me to forgive

To rise, to learn, to truly live

Water cleanses, tears revive

And maybe pain helps love survive

The past is carved into my name

But I’m not here to stay the same

I may be distant, cold, and shy

But I still dream beneath the sky

Black girl – God’s grace

Young boy – Jesus’ face

Young girl – Holy Spirit's touch

White dress – wisdom we need so much

Old man – forgiveness I never had

Water – washing away all the bad

Tears – to grow what once was dry

And rise again with head held high

I’m A and B, but I am whole

A heart that’s fighting for control

Behind the silence, there’s a flame

Trying to rise, to heal the shame

Seventeen shadows still remain

But I won’t let them be my chain

I’ll find the light, I’ll learn to be

Me, myself & I — finally free

Based on a true story, no disguise

A soul reborn, behind these eyes

This is me — and this is real

The seventh teen, the final seal