[Verse 1]
They see a mask, I see a wall
Behind these eyes, I’ve seen it all
I laugh but hide the silent cries
Built from bruises and goodbye
I walk alone, I hold my breath
Keep them out, protect what’s left
Don’t get too close, don’t ask me why
My silence screams, I won’t deny
[Pre-Chorus]
In the corner where I hide, I feel safe but dead inside
Distance is my armor, but it’s also my divide
They call me cold, they think I’m mean
But it’s just wounds that no one’s seen
[Chorus]
I’m A and B, a paradox inside
Paranoid heart with a love that hides
I push away, then crave the light
Me, myself & I in the war I fight
Seventeen shadows in my mind
I’m not broken, just redesigned
And I will find who I’m meant to be
But for now, I’m learning how to be me
[Verse 2]
Don’t trust the touch, don’t trust the smile
Some betray with every mile
Every “hi” could mean a lie
So I escape, don’t even try
Self-sufficient, self-contained
No one sees my hidden pain
They follow close, I pull away
Afraid their ghosts will want to stay
[Pre-Chorus]
I’m expressive, but only when
You break my walls again and again
But even then, I fear the fall
So I’d rather never feel at all
[Chorus]
I’m A and B, a storm inside
Loving loud, but choosing pride
I play the role, I cry in dreams
I fake control with silent screams
Seventeen shadows in my mind
Built by hurt, and love declined
But I still hope someone might see
The version I hide deep in me
[Bridge]
The Shack taught me to forgive
To rise, to learn, to truly live
Water cleanses, tears revive
And maybe pain helps love survive
The past is carved into my name
But I’m not here to stay the same
I may be distant, cold, and shy
But I still dream beneath the sky
[Breakdown – Whispered Spoken Word Style]
Black girl – God’s grace
Young boy – Jesus’ face
Young girl – Holy Spirit's touch
White dress – wisdom we need so much
Old man – forgiveness I never had
Water – washing away all the bad
Tears – to grow what once was dry
And rise again with head held high
[Final Chorus]
I’m A and B, but I am whole
A heart that’s fighting for control
Behind the silence, there’s a flame
Trying to rise, to heal the shame
Seventeen shadows still remain
But I won’t let them be my chain
I’ll find the light, I’ll learn to be
Me, myself & I — finally free
[Outro]
Based on a true story, no disguise
A soul reborn, behind these eyes
This is me — and this is real
The seventh teen, the final seal
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