Grandpa

It seems like I fell into the bottle

N she got me hostage I’m begging u please

It seems like I fell into the bottle

And I can’t see clearly my vision is gone

N I don’t really understand where all dis went wrong

Yea I’m sorry Grandpa I should have been

As you lay there with yo eyes closed

My tears stain all my clothes

Yea I don’t think Jackie can help me dis time

Yea I’m going crazy over all our memories

You showed me how to cast a line

Sittin quiet by the creek in the summertime

You said a man ain’t judged by the money he holds

But by the weight he can carry and the truth he’s told

We fixed up that old Ford with rust in the door

You’d cuss at the wrench then go pray some more

Taught me how to shoot straight and clean a deer

Now I’m holdin onto your voice like you’re still here

It seems like I fell into the bottle

And the world’s movin on without me in stride

I can’t find the road back to who I was

Since I lost the man who taught me pride

Grandpa I’m tryin but I’m just a mess

Writin you letters I’ll never get to send

This whiskey burns but it ain’t half as rough

As losin my hero when I couldn’t show up

You said do right even when no one can see

But I lost my way in the worst of me

I was stuck in a cell when they said you were gone

Felt like the devil had won all along

If I could turn time back to your front porch light

I’d sit beside you every single night

Ask one more question and laugh ’til it hurt

Just to see your hands calloused and covered in dirt

It seems like I fell into the bottle

And the world’s movin on without me in stride

I can’t find the road back to who I was

Since I lost the man who taught me pride

Grandpa I’m tryin but I’m just a mess

Writin you letters I’ll never get to send

This whiskey burns but it ain’t half as rough

As losin my hero when I couldn’t show up

I still got your flannel hangin by my bed

And that old cowboy hat you always wore on your head

Mama says I got your stubborn ways

And your voice still echoes in the words I say

Sometimes I see you in my rearview

Like you’re watchin every mile I do

Wish I could hear your boots on the kitchen floor

Sayin “Boy, you’re stronger than you were before”

Yeah I fell into the bottle

Tryna drown what I can’t forget

But your love’s still carved in my backbone

Like the ink in that sunset

You were more than blood you were my friend

And I’ll keep you with me to the end

So when I raise this glass and close my eyes

I’ll hear your laugh under southern skies

I still talk to you when the sky turns red

Sit out back where your prayers were said

If Heaven’s watchin, I hope you’re proud

I’m tryin to stand tall, not let you down