[Verse 1]
You stand
Just outside my ruin
Hands in your pockets
Like you’re browsing through my scars
You talk
Softly, like a sermon
Name every fracture
Say you like the way they shine
[Pre-Chorus]
I trace your outline in the steam
Tell myself it’s just a dream
But every night, you’re in my mouth
A burning word I can’t spit out (can’t spit out)
[Chorus]
You are the ache I keep on feeding
The open wound I will not close
I say I’m done, my chest keeps bleeding
You’re holy poison in my throat
I pray to anything that moves
To tear you from my nervous system
I don’t believe, but I still choose
To worship what I know will kill me
[Verse 2]
You laugh
Teeth like tiny monuments
Built on the bones
Of anyone who leaned too close
I choke
On every almost-moment
Those half-inch distances
Between your fingers and my ghost
[Pre-Chorus]
I carve you out, then write you back
A haunted script along my back
You’re in the skin I cannot shed
A phantom thumb against my neck (against my neck)
[Chorus]
You are the ache I keep on feeding
The open wound I will not close
I say I’m done, my chest keeps bleeding
You’re holy poison in my throat
I pray to anything that moves
To tear you from my nervous system
I don’t believe, but I still choose
To worship what I know will kill me
[Bridge]
[sudden drop into glitchy, half-time groove]
I bite my tongue
But it still says your name (your name)
I cut you out
You bloom right through the stain
I am the dog
That runs back to the flame
You are the knife
That asks me why I blame
[Breakdown]
(scream it out)
I don’t want you
I don’t want you
I don’t want you
But I do, but I do
Tear me open
Leave me hollow
I’m your echo
I’m your shadow (hey!)
[Chorus]
You are the ache I keep on feeding
The open wound I will not close
I say I’m done, my chest keeps bleeding
You’re holy poison in my throat
I pray to anything that moves
To tear you from my nervous system
I don’t believe, but I still choose
To worship what I know will kill me
[Outro]
Last sip of you
On my bitten lip
If craving is a crime
Then let me sink
You’re just out of reach
And that’s where you live
Close enough to see
Too far to forgive