Altars

[Verse 1]
You haunt the edges of my bedroom wall
Name in the cracks of the plaster
I scrub and scrape but it’s still there
Fading slower than the laughter
You’re on my tongue like a swallowed spark
Burning holes in what I pray for
I try to starve you from my veins
But every fast just makes me crave more
[Chorus]
You’re just out of reach, under my skin
I claw at the cage but I let you in
I don’t wanna want you
I don’t wanna want you
But I do, but I do, but I do
You’re a hand on my throat, a halo of sin
I beg you to leave, then you pull me in
I don’t wanna want you
I don’t wanna want you
But I do, but I do, just for you
[Verse 2]
You sit in silence in the empty pew
Where I confess what I won’t change
Kneeling down to all the things
That hurt, then hold, then rearrange
You’re in the mirror when the lights go black
A ghost behind my tired eyes
If I could cut you from my face
Would I be mercy or a lie?
[Chorus]
You’re just out of reach, under my skin
I claw at the cage but I let you in
I don’t wanna want you
I don’t wanna want you
But I do, but I do, but I do
You’re a hand on my throat, a halo of sin
I beg you to leave, then you pull me in
I don’t wanna want you
I don’t wanna want you
But I do, but I do, just for you
[Bridge]
[Half-time, synths swell, guitars open up]
I build you altars out of broken sleep
Trading my rest for another slow bleed
Every touch imagined, every word unsaid
You keep living in the spaces in my head (head)
If I cut the cord, would you disappear
Or bloom brighter in the absence of my fear?
I say I’m done, my body calls me liar (liar)
I walk away, but circle back to fire (back to fire)
[Chorus]
You’re just out of reach, under my skin
I claw at the cage but I let you in
I don’t wanna want you
I don’t wanna want you
But I do, but I do, but I do
You’re a hand on my throat, a halo of sin
I beg you to leave, then you pull me in
I don’t wanna want you
I don’t wanna want you
But I do, but I do
(I still do, I still do)

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