[Verse 1]
I wake up bent in half
With my mind in the sink
Bills on the table
And a hole in my chest
The phone keeps barking
Like it wants my blood
I fake that smile
Till my jaw locks shut
[M] Heavy hands on my throat
[F] Tell me breathe, tell me stay
[M] But the room keeps shrinking
[F] And the day tastes like rust
[Pre-Chorus]
I count the cracks in the wall
Like they owe me a way out
I count my pulse like a threat
And I still don't know how
[Chorus]
This weight won't leave me
This weight won't leave me
Pull me under, pull me under
I am still here
This weight won't leave me
This weight won't leave me
Break my name, break my nerves
I am still here
[Verse 2]
The mirror throws back
A stranger in my skin
Eyes like closed doors
Mouth full of wire and grit
I carry ten losses
In a coat made of lead
Every promise I made
Turns to dust in my head
[M] Tell me I'm not alone
[F] Tell me I can survive
[M] I keep crawling forward
[F] With a knife in my mind
[Pre-Chorus]
I hear the dark talk loud
When the house goes thin and cold
But I plant both feet down
Even shaking, I hold
[Chorus]
This weight won't leave me
This weight won't leave me
Pull me under, pull me under
I am still here
This weight won't leave me
This weight won't leave me
Break my name, break my nerves
I am still here
[Bridge]
If I fall, don't call it the end
If I break, I'll build again
From the ash in my mouth
From the blood in my pen
[M] I am not the wound
[F] I am not the cage
[M] I am not the years
[F] They tried to erase
[Breakdown]
Hit me again
I don't fold
Bury the fear
I still hold
Hit me again
I won't die
I am the storm
Inside
[Final Chorus]
This weight won't leave me
This weight won't leave me
Pull me under, pull me under
I am still here
This weight won't leave me
This weight won't leave me
Break my name, break my nerves
I am still here
This weight won't leave me
This weight won't leave me
I take the burn
And live through it