CJ

CJ…

You knew what it was.

But you wanted more.

Now you got me…

But not in the way you thought.

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You fell in love with a version of me

That only shows up after Hennessy

Sayin’ “baby, just stay,”

But I’m already driftin’ away

You text me long paragraphs

I hit back with a “wyd?”

You talk about future plans

I talk about thighs and ecstasy

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You knew what I was

Don’t act brand new

I gave you red flags

You painted them blue

You wanted love

I gave you a phase

Now you cry in my hoodie

Still won’t leave my page

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CJ, don’t say I didn’t warn you

You loved a ghost, now I haunt you

I never lied, just never told the truth

You fell hard, but I just…used you smooth

CJ, I kiss like forever

Then I vanish like never

You gave your soul, I gave you pain

And somehow, you still whisper my name

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You let me in too deep

Now I sleep where your peace used to be

You hate me, but crave me

You blame me, but chase me

You ain’t the only one

But you felt like home

So I played the role

Till your heart turned stone

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You knew.

And you still stayed.

That’s the part that makes you mine…

Forever.

Voicemail – soft, tired voice with a slight tremble]

“Hey…

I don’t even know why I’m calling.

You probably won’t listen to this anyway.

I gave you everything.

And you gave me confusion, silence… other girls.

I kept thinking if I loved you hard enough, you’d change.

But you never did.

Funny part is…

I’d still answer if you called.

Even now.”

(short pause… faint sigh, then beep)