Self abuse

(verse 1)

yesterday i felt okay,

today i wanna fade away,

roll a blunt and line it straight,

chasin’ highs i can’t escape.

friends around but i’m alone,

laughin’ loud but it’s just show,

tryna talk but i don’t know,

how to act, i fuckin’ choke.

(hook)

i’ve been tryna fill the void inside,

weed smoke and white lines in my mind,

every smile feels like a lie,

i hate my life but i’m still alive.

(verse 2)

eyes red, heart cold,

feel too young but i’m growin’ old,

say i’m fine, but it’s all a front,

truth is i don’t feel much.

everyone says they care,

but no one’s ever really there,

i’m that weirdo in the room,

staring deep into my doom.

(hook)

i’ve been tryna fill the void inside,

weed smoke and white lines in my mind,

every smile feels like a lie,

i hate my life but i’m still alive.

(bridge)

some days i think i’m healing,

next day i just stop feeling,

maybe peace ain’t meant for me,

just a ghost in my own skin, endlessly.

(outro)

yeah, i’m still here,

but i don’t know why.

yeah, i’m still breathing,

but inside i died.