Last words

I don't know how to start this but I'm done with this test,

I can't live without you so I will make it to where I don't have too,

don't be depressed, I caused this mess,

live life to the fullest, unlike me you got this,

I'm sorry that I'm gone now,

had a whole plan of going south but that went south,

I'm sorry I couldn't say this from my mouth but the words wont come out,

that's what moving on is about right? Can't believe I lost sight of what was important in my life,

I wanted to be your wife but instead I shouted words that cut like a knife,

I'm sorry, this was a weight I couldn't carry,

just lay me down to rot,

guess I did it for the plot,

I'm sorry we ever faught, that's not what I'd been taught,

guess karma caught up to me, just couldn't let me be,

the thought burnt from inside of me, I wish time just let me see what we could be, im sorry, I'm sorry for everything I ever did to make you cry, I've told plenty of lies, you weren't that guy to just leave, you stayed by my side even when I made you cry, I'm sorry. I didn't deserve you, I made you this way, I caused you this pain, in sorry I was so vain, you have every reason to hate me, its only now that I see the monster that was inside of me.