Room With No Doors

Yeah

Wake up

Same war

Same ceiling

Peeling paint

But it mirrors my feelings

Phone full of names I don't call

Guess it's easier to drown than to crawl

Tell 'em "I'm fine"

That's scripted

Smile so tight my jaw goes twisted

Bathroom light on

Stare at my face

Try to scrub off the shame like it's toothpaste

Heart heavy like it's made out of concrete

Thoughts run laps

I got blisters on both feet

Prayed last night

Words stuck in my throat

How you say "help" when the lie's all you know?

Every day feels like a room with no doors

Four cold walls and a cracked-up floor

Shouting for a way out till my voice gets hoarse

But the echo just throws every word back worse

If this is living

What am I dying for?

Stuck inside a room

A room with no doors

I don't need critics

I judge me harder

I swing the gavel

I’m my own martyr

Every little flaw

Yeah

I zoom

Enhance

Turn a raindrop doubt to a tidal wave trance

People say

"Just talk

You'll feel better"

But the words weigh tons

I can't lift that letter

Try to write it down

Pen snaps in my fingers

Ink on the page

But the hurt still lingers

Yeah

I keep busy so I don't feel broken

Build my schedule like a cage that's open

Funny how I’m free but my head's in chains

Got a smile on my mouth

Got a storm in my veins (yeah)

Every day feels like a room with no doors

Four cold walls and a cracked-up floor

Shouting for a way out till my voice gets hoarse

But the echo just throws every word back worse

If this is living

What am I dying for?

Stuck inside a room

A room with no doors

What if I'm more than the weight on my chest?

What if this hurt is a test

Not a sentence?

What if these scars are a map to the exit?

What if this breath means I ain't done yet? (I ain't done yet)

Every day feels like a room with no doors

Four cold walls and a cracked-up floor

Shouting for a way out till my voice gets hoarse

But the echo keeps saying

"Hold on one more"

If this is living

Maybe there's still more

In this same old room

I'll carve my own door (yeah)

In this same dark room

I'll carve my own door (oh)