Verse 1
Streetlights blur like a fever dream
Midnight pouring gasoline
Music loud enough to drown
Every thought that drags me down
I know this road, every crack, every lie
The fake peace money can buy
And for a second I feel untouchable
Like nothing ugly can get inside my soul
Pre-Chorus
But the sunrise always tells the truth
When the magic burns right through
And I’m left alone with me again
Chorus
I think I fell in love with the escape
Living for the numbness while it eats my brain
Fighting demons in the dark every night
Trying to kill the pain before it kills my light
And I know heaven shouldn’t hurt this way
But I still crave disappearing
Yeah I’m addicted to the fade
In love with the escape
Verse 2
Bathroom mirror, tired eyes
Pretty disguise for a war inside
Laugh too loud, dance too free
Anything not to feel what’s underneath
I keep chasing that floating feeling
Where nothing matters and everything’s healing
But the comedown cuts like broken glass
And every high leaves shadows in its path
Pre-Chorus
Still I hear temptation call my name
Like poison wrapped in angel wings
Promising peace it never brings
Chorus
I think I fell in love with the escape
Living for the numbness while it eats my brain
Fighting demons in the dark every night
Trying to kill the pain before it kills my light
And I know heaven shouldn’t hurt this way
But I still crave disappearing
Yeah I’m addicted to the fade
In love with the escape
Verse 3
Now the room is quiet, no flashing lights
Just me and the truth at 3 a.m. tonight
Hearing every heartbeat, every fear
Trying to learn how to stay here
Some nights I still want to disappear
Float away and numb what I can’t bear
But I’m starting to believe there’s something more
Than surviving like I did before
And if healing comes slow like the tide
At least I’m no longer trying to die inside
Bridge
Maybe I’m not evil
Maybe I’m just tired
Of drowning in the thoughts I hide inside
Dragging darkness through my life
Maybe all this darkness
Was never meant to stay
Just a broken soul
Trying to find a way
Final Chorus
I used to be in love with the escape
Living for the numbness while it ate my brain
Fighting demons in the dark every night
Trying to kill the pain before it killed my light
And even if I still feel the pull some days
I know disappearing isn’t saving me
Cause somewhere underneath the ache
There’s more to me than the escape
