Rain

Rain rolling down my cheeks. Drowning in the pain from that deep cut. What is there left for me. When all these wishkey bottles are empty. You the girl next door was my whole damn world. I don't need your pity I just need your company. Many have tried to fill your shoes but none can replace the taste of your lips on mine. I hate myself for not leaving you in the past. Feels like I will spend a lifetime to get over you. Filling line after Line of pain. Releasing what is within with a pen. Ease the sorrow with a bottle. Us acting like we are strangers in passing. I feel it killing me every time. I only feel relief when I fill up my glass with that top shelf liquor. Just trying to get through this hell. Trying to hoold it tooogether. Drinking till the wishkey taste bitter. Thinking I won't ever get over her wanting the nights where you were by my side. I try and try but the truth is I can't hide from the way I feel. I'm ashamed of how I feel about you. Ohhh it's truuuue I'm another victim to your love game. Wishing we lived in the fantasy I made up in my mind. But your side of the bed being cold too the touch. Snaps me back to reality loosing my sanity with each night that goes by. Asking the sky why do I feel apart of me haaass died. The rain feels great from this height. High enough to say goodbye and cast myself down to the streets down below. Losing you was the hardest blow I ever had to take. I know I wasn't meant to hold your hand. No that wasn't our fate. Still remember the date and hour when we took a permanent break. Too much is at stake for us to be a united front. But I still want to risk it.