Fending off

Fending off the ghost of your memory. Spending all my sanity in the fantasy we didn't end. This harsh reality ravishes me. Trying to play pretend to keep hush hush. But it is not any use nothing numbs this heart ache. Seeing you only in my sleep only tightens the bind you have on my mind. Your face rides on the silence like the fallen leaves on a gentle stream. Life has been growing harder and harder. The longer its been since I seen that face. I know now what I should have known then. That will always be our moment in time. Ohhh how you were able to leave us behind. I can't believe how fast you moved on. You must have been lying every time you said you loved me. Now all I got are a few memories of holding you. Down down I feel so down I drown my self in the whiskey. But there is no escape from the hold you have on me. Feelin like all my friends now were made in a lab. Faded faded is how I run through life. Trying to numb the pain. Just trying to numb the pain of the good times we had. You created a sad sad man my only friends are the whiskey and bourbon. Burning burning all the pics from that trip. I need another shot to medicate this heart break. I take another round. Covered in a mound of all our sins. Just weighed down. How do I bring my self to move on. Stole my son away from me now I only drink the top shelf. My two month old you took him away Henry was his name. You opted for no contact. Wishing you would bring him back to me or supervised visits at least. Broken a broken heart broken in two cuase how you did me and do me. I hope he knows I didn't want to do this.